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havent been feeling happy since august
been crying alot too
feels like i cant do things well
i feel so stressed almost every single day
im stressed till to the point that i dont wanna face it
i choose to escape from it, i just dont want bother at all, i dont feel like doing the reports, dont feel like studying at all!!!
whats wrong with me?!
because of this, my mood swings
i dont feel like talking, laughing or even smiling
i feel the gap between me and my frens is getting bigger
my relationship got lots of problem, and sometimes im really tired to fix it

i dont know how to talk to my family
whenever my father asks me "hows your studies?"
i just feel very guilty
i want them to feel proud of me, but seems like i fail to do so...